Rethinking those high hopes
There are some things I am committed to as a wife and mother, and I stick to them unwaveringly. There are lots of things I stay basically committed to, but let slide now and then. And there are some high hopes of mine I simply have let go of completely, at least temporarily.
Respectively,
I am still committed to a t.v.-free life for our kids, at least for now. (To clarify, Noah has seen some t.v. at his grandparents' house, and I did let him watch the opening five minutes of the BBC Pride and Prejudice movie once when I needed to run to the bathroom with morning sickness. But other than that, he's never watched t.v.)
I am basically committed to cloth diapers, but I am forgiving myself when that slides lately. I have two wee ones in cloth. I am convinced it's understandable when I'm not on top of it, and that that's perfectly okay.
But my great expectations of growing a garden this summer? Gone.
We bought lovely heirloom seeds from an industrious eighteen-year old homeschool graduate in the Valley (who started his successful business at the age of 16. Heh, homeschoolers amaze me. {Sort of like my husband, who started university at 16.}).
We dreamed of a huge variety of delicious veggies, teaching Noah all about food sources, and happy times in the sun weeding, planting and even snacking right there in the garden on our lovely homegrown food.
Patrick built raised beds, filled them with soil, and now. . .

they have become glorified sandboxes.
Do I feel guilty about this? No, not at all. I don't even think I'm disappointed, because I know that there are seasons for everything in life, and right now, our season is growing babies and toddlers, not veggies.
It's my favourite season of all.
Thanks, Jenna, for your well-grounded thoughts. My challenges are not quite the same as yours (although they once were remarkably similar) but I, too, need to stop and review my priorities. Especially at times of change (I've a big one coming up with the submission of my thesis!). Thank you for your candour about your prayerful choices.
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